I skipped a day, those kind of things are bound to happen. It's early morning and have yet to settle in. It's only been two weeks now though, maybe closer to three. Soon enough, I lose the ability to use that line.
Just yesterday I had a close encounter with a spider, supposedly called a huntsman and harmless, so they say. Nevermind the damage it already did to my nerves by simply seeing it motionless on the door. Of course, I'm joking, I'm not that crazy over a spider but have to admit, some things we can all do without seeing. Living in New York, we all know the roaches are there...even the centipedes, oh those are fun. It's not until we see them that we can't get them off our minds, like we've just seen a bad horror movie and are just waiting for the mutated body to slowly creak our door open and find it's way to our sleeping selves. Well...trying-to-sleep selves, we're probably too busy glued on the door, I'm positive there was movement that last second ago.
I applied to a few places yesterday, even though I don't feel quite ready to actually look. I guess it's kinda like that initial forced step, otherwise you'd never be ready. I want to keep going with my custom designs
(http://www.zazzle.com/jonyxdesign*) but I know the time it needs is vast and that's just to keep creating, afterwards come marketting. This wouldn't be a hard issue if it were simple to just deal with how things are now. My other half makes the money, I don't really. I have before in NYC and far more than him and that made me feel great. The job itself did get a bit dull after awhile and the idea of taking a plunge across country was far more interesting. But now, I feel like I need that feeling of superiority again, hard to do without. I know people, well women, that are just content with taking the backseat, being taken care of and making absolutely nothing but I think they're crazy. Maybe they think I'm crazy too.
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